Friday, 18 May 2012

Please stay

Looked around at
The hollow spaces
Broken toys and,
Broken faces
Patience was put
To a thorough test
The soul within
Was at unrest
The silence persisted
Harrowed with no noise
No more gurgling, no talking
No more choice
Departed quickly
Making it uneasy
Walking to the room
Made him/her go crazy
Not once could
S/he say
Don't go
Please stay.

Thursday, 12 April 2012

MICA - One word says it all.

I write this because there is a place that I consider my second home... A place I love... A place I miss... And now I understand what withdrawal symptoms truly mean! The place I am referring to is... MICA!

The other day I wore a salwar suit and needed silver chappals to go with them. The usual thought, "Will take it from Kruti or Sam. I know they have silver chappals" And then I stopped and stared at my wardrobe. That is all I have! No more Kruti's, Sam's, Meeta's or Punk's room that I could just walk into pick up whatever I wanted and walk out. When I jacked my phone to clear some data on my memory card, I realized 350 songs I do not even listen to, but I had them cause that used to be our source of entertainment in the car where I used to DJ for my girls. There were days when we absolutely did nothing but just sat in each others room and talked and talked and talked.

Sitting at home this is what I am doing... writing, sleeping, reading and eating. Yes, I missed home cooked food at MICA but now it is the other way round. I was never a breakfast person but snacks were my all-time favourite. Last night I had yummy home cooked dosas and awesome green chutney which sadly reminded me of South Indian nights at the Mess when everybody would hit Chhota. I look at my phone, Manu or Vineeth might just call at 4 A.M. "Chhota?? Chai?". At home, no more 4 A.M. chai. The thought of preparing it kills it for me and I go back to sleep.

Watching Big Bang theory on laptop at home doesn't feel the same. The bloody B-division as Sam used to lovingly call us used to sit and discuss random things instead of assignments. From cars to cartoons to movies to food the B-division gang (Jaymin, Manu, Vineeth, Tathagat, Manasi, Divya, Chadha, Meeta, Kruti and me) discussed everything sitting in Parijat 16 munching on some food, always. Chits were drawn to decide groups such that we always got to work with different people each time but in the end it just didn't matter as all would be putting their heads together helping each other. I used to love designing presentations even for courses I didn't have but others did.

There is an eerie silence around my house. No traffic, no chaos and no noises. I am used to the music blaring from hostels, the yells "Zanu... Anu... Culcomm meeting... Chandni", goal cheers from Community centre, or cheers from the baddy court. I see kids in my building play badminton in the evening (vacation times) and I remember how Jaymin made me run on the court, making me take shots that I would never try and even attempt. Jayati was an awesome baddy partner, we did play a lot of matches against Jaymin where he would read our minds and give us shots where we would never reach. It was a lot of fun! Manasi and Divya would come to Chandni calling out our names, or singing, or dancing, all would sit in one room and chill. Sujay would make his presence and talk on and on with his favourite dialogues "How do you girls not know about this? Are you girls even there in MICA? Really? Wait I will tell you...."

The other day on Whatsapp we were discussing MICA parties. Those were the best times. Same music being played every single party but we would dance like there is no tomorrow. I have seen the best birthday parties at MICA. Innovations at its best! In so little space and time there is so much that we used to do. Looking back at pictures and videos reminded me of incidences, talks, falls, laughs, cries and more. I am glad I clicked so many pictures and took so many videos!

Chandni girls... Where do I even start? We were an eclectic bunch of people always smiling. Barsha and Aakriti's electronic music tastes to Shradha and Paddy's Hindi tadka, music was on in Chandni. The volume was low but loud enough for each one of us in Chandni to hear it. I was used to seeing faces every morning, afternoon, evening and nights. Now I see none of those faces. From 24 rooms to just 2 rooms that I live in now, its quite sad.

"Lunch?" "Dinner?" These were group messages sent to all. Chadha would promptly call or message back "Coming". When I had to group message recently I saw all these previous messages. No more random walks and talks post dinner. No more Mathew Sir's movie screenings which have been a great source of learning. I cannot think of MICA without Mathew Sir and I am glad I am not there to witness it. No more assignments or presentations. No more editing Jaymin's no full stop assignments. No more random Chandni 7 moments. No more gossiping. No more MICANVAS, Oorja, Alumni, Mukhaute, Maktub, SAMAR and many more. No more Batch Meets, Placecomm Meets. No more decorating Audi for Culnites. No more Culcomm or meetings. No more Parijat 16. No more Chandni 8!

MICA mein na... You make friends who become your family. You know 154 people you can get in touch with anytime, anywhere using MICAMAIL. You have your time of your life, a time that shall always be fondly remembered.

The thought of not going back kills. It's definitely the people that make the place what it is! Love you PGP-17! MICA has a whole new definition in my life thanks to each one of you!

And as Dhruv Bhai rightly said, "Har phelu main hai naya Zaika, Magar kuch nahi tere jaisa MICA."


Saturday, 17 September 2011

PRIORITIZE... PRIORITIZE RIGHT!!!

If work is more important than 'loved ones',
What happens to 'them' after you are fired?
If assignments are more important than 'friends',
What happens to 'them' after the deadline?
If boyfriend(s) is(are) more important than 'parents'
What happens to 'them' after a breakup?
If others are more important than 'you',
What happens to 'you' after they leave?

LOST THEM!
LOST YOURSELF!

PRIORITIZE!

Importantly...

PRIORITIZE RIGHT!!!

Thursday, 11 August 2011

Journey v/s Destination

It is difficult to watch or see with closed eyes. But every detail I could see. The numbness could still sense the pain. Walking those paths when every muscle in my body was crippled. Dragging my shattered soul to its destination. I didn't know where the end was. Turning back wasn't an option. I could wait but darkness would befell. Rather it had already attacked, not superficially though. With no strength I geared myself almost muttering a chant to myself 'It's the journey that's important not the destination.' So what if it is Painful!

Thursday, 28 July 2011

As it trickled...

First drop tried to trickle,
It still was fickle,
Walking down the same road,
Touching those walls & moulds,
The essence was still there,
Blurred eyes tried hard to stare,
Gulp everything it could,
Face everything it should,
An uneasiness settled in,
Heard voices within,
Twitched, turned, shunned,
Everything within churned,
Hollowness prevailed,
Life had been derailed,
T'was time to face it again,
It felt insane,
It had to be trained,
To endure the pain,
Numbed, hurt and crippled,
As the last tear trickled!